The other day Lindsey (my wife and best friend) and I were driving somewhere, and I told her about a conversation I recently had with a few friends about business, entrepreneurship, and captaining your own ship. Positivity is my common default, but I also feel that I try to be forward facing about the pain points that create stress, tension, and anxiety in me.
I now realize I might just gloss over them.
In short, Lindsey said I should share more of those pain points. She basically intimated that I make the struggle sound good and that I should let a few more eyes and ears come into contact with the process of negotiating doubt.
To that end... I'm in a really tense place these days as I wait to hear about a deal for IPMM that would be a huge win for various reasons. Managing my own expectations while putting all the work in can spin me up sometimes.
As good as I feel about things, feelings don't put food on the table or pay bills, so I had better be turning them all into momentum.
Some days I'm down and some days I'm flush, but between loving the process of doing the work and learning, I'm able to feel good most of the time.
Even so, the struggle is real, and there are certainly moments when I wonder what the fuck I'm doing.
No wish will achieve my goals for me, so I better combine all this doubt, optimism, grit, limbo, hustle, seeking, service, and delight ... and do this.